Recently, during a performance appraisal I was able to offload some stinking-thinking. One of the nagging and ongoing traits of childhood abuse is the internal fight my saboteur has with God’s Spirit in me. Our inner-critic is so cunning that oft we find ourselves back in old patterns of thinking, so quickly, we kick ourselves that we, to quote Britney, “Oops, I did it again.”
God wants us to get to place of strength through Him. This proves challenging depending how severe the child trauma goes. In my case learning to see myself as God sees me has taken, is taking years. The pendulum was far down the pit that I had to scramble out of- parental attempted murder, sexual abuse, bullying, social stigmatizing, sexual dysfunction, addiction, suicidation. All too common. I was one of.
Over the years being a Believer in Christ, I had a lot of arguments for God. God saw past my self-protective sanctimoniousness and through His Leading brought the right persons with the next thing I needed to help me unlearn and relearn.
Did I fail?
Obviously, what do you expect? Going from injured to redeemed, and from redeemed to healing, is not a fast-food drive through.
2 Chronicles 20 vs 1-17 is a magnificent Holy Scripture that illuminates God’s Character as the fierce, warrior, protective-Father, and our fragility.
Evil dudes are wanting to cancel the Jews. Again. Interestingly, the only time Israel was defeated was when they relied on their own understanding OR rejected Thee ONLY LIVING GOD by worshipping demonic pagan inventions.
I love how Jehoshaphat-
* Acknowledges who God says He is
* Steps out of denial which is ego driven, and admits His fragility and fears (step 1)
* Admits he doesn’t have answers (step 2)
Grasping the last few verses of the selected Holy Scripture, we need to time travel to the New Testament that delves deeper into these statements of, “This is God’s battle, don’t be afraid, stand firm.”
It is easy to forget that God rules the ENTIRE, known and unknown world. We get stuck in conceit because we live inside ourselves, inside a planet, inside a galaxy, inside a universe, inside time, inside limited experience. We get trapped into our own paradigm of self. Ephesians 6 vs 10-13 reminds us that we are not fully aware of life beyond ourselves. That life is at war-good versus evil. The object is you. However, the choice is ENTIRELY yours alone as to which team you align yourself to
God is so AMAZING that He explains to us that troubles will come, but to not quake in our boots in fear, also tells us to trust Him. We learn to overcome this cruel, fallen, sinful, world by building a relationship with God which grows our faith to obey Him.
JESUS LOVES YOU
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